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la de FUCKING da.
Dayna's mom just said something about crotch smell...
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[21 Nov 2006|01:50am] |
im going to st. augustine to see dayna and rhett on friday. im so fucking excited!
ill get to meet aaron and ryan. and see jana and chris again. it is going to be so much fucking fun. holy shit. so stoked.
i hope everyone has a safe and good turkey day.
so far florida is great. but im really missing my friends and hacing thoughts on coming back because i miss them so much. plus im in love. and long distance relationships dont work out. ive done it before and i wont do it again.
i miss ash and chelly the most. and i miss the in vitro boys.
i want to be rich so i can come and see everyone all the time.
but its jsut not in the cards.
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[03 Nov 2006|02:11am] |
so i moved to florida i havent been on here in ages and it all loks weird but i thought that this would be a good thing to write about.
so yeah i live in florida now and it is awesome. i couldnt be happier. well i mean i miss my friends alot. but i get to see some of them very soon which makes my life.
i met an amazing guy, ooo what a cutie. lets see how this works out.
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going to taking back sunday tonight. i cant wait. i have loved them forever and i have yet to see them. alright.
doing laundry right now.
i need to eat cuz im real hungry.
i work all the time this week i work every day and 3 doubles at mellow and bogeys. god damn son.
if im not there i am with my boyfriend nick or sleeping...at nicks.thats what i do.
so i appologize for the lack of hanging out... i am just busy and tired.
my trip plans diodnt go through but i finally got my god damn liscence and i get a car next week and im stoked. jesus its about fucking time yo.
i will be going to florida soon though.
so stoked to see eric voss. god did i miss that kid.
moving to jacksonville in a month or so. i dont wantt o leave my boyfriend.... i dont know what to do. and im going to miss my friends like crazy. fuck man. im lost.
god but i do want my garden state soundtrack back. i havent had it in like 8 months... or something. god damn.
i miss you.
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[07 Feb 2006|05:56pm] |
last year nick wrote me a song for valentines day... so i wrote him one back... ill post it later. also....
nick is my distant valentine.... but i want one thats close to here..... k great. ne takers?
awesome... later.
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so basicaclly my dad got this job in florida. 99.9% sure.
nice for our family.
im totally stoked... finnally the place i want to be.... but its a little late... do i go to florida with everyone or do i go to new york? fuck. fuck fuck fuck.
fuck making decisions. i jsut want to fucking be happy...
god damn.
i dont know what to do.
the silent escape - sat-masquerade-at 7:00-$6 adv. be there.
work fri night and sun morning....
i love tolbert, greenfield, quinton, nelson, the oliveras, ash, veronix, lauren s... thanks guys for hanging out so much latley.
ineed to see stace, jeremy, adam, ryan, and nick asap.
ilnwm.
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i am so bored. who wants to hang out... tonight. save me please. if i sit here any longer i am going to kill myself. no joke. get me out of here. good god.
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[07 Oct 2005|03:36pm] |
what does that mean???
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[31 Aug 2005|11:57am] |
imin class with johnny c and britt smith. she is so hott and i am secretly in love with johnny c. dont tell him. and dont let him look over here or else he will see me writing this.
school is lame.
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[29 Aug 2005|03:36pm] |
here i go with my wih list:
i wish i didnt have to worry about a boy a 1000 miles away.
i wish i didnt care ne more.
i wish i could play my acoustic or bass like salena.
i wish i had a boyfriend to hold and kiss. thats all.
i wish best friends didnt talk shit and try to get me in trouble.
i wish i had my lisnce and a car
i wish i was 18 already so johnny can take me on that trip and teach me how to surf.
i wish i lived on the beach.
i wish santa clause was real and gave me all of these thing or what ever the hell i want.
i wish i had a better c.d collection.
i wish we had salt in my house cuz i hate eating raman noodles without salt.
i wish i wasnt sucking at school.
i wish johhny wasnt grounded so he could come tutor me.
i wish atlanta wasnt 45 minutes away and gas wasnt so crazy expensive.
i wish i could snap my fingers and have a new phone.
i wish i had a genie.
i wish i had tits
i wish i had an ass.
i wish i could be a little taller and try really hard to be a model.
i wish you would tell me the truth and not leave me out of everything. i wish you werent an asshole. and a liar.
i wish that other someone liked me as much as i like them.
i wish i didnt fall for guys so easily.
i wish i wasnt bored.
i wish my cousins were closer.
i wish i had a life and no time to write what i jsut wrote.
if u read that your crazy . thats alot of bullshit. but yeah.. thansk i guess.
i want to read another wish list besides mine. someone make one and keep me entertained.
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[24 Aug 2005|11:01pm] |
johns funeral today...
wow...
open casket... didnt even look like him. saw people i havent seen in a while. i sucks that it takes shit like this to bring people together again...
worst true life tragedy of my life. this is unreal.
i love you johnathan livingston simpson. your in my heart and prayers you will always be in the back of my mind. your missed so much.
what a great guy...
im in total shock.
that image will haunt me for the rest of my life.
in other news...
my love life is lame. its going no where. great...
nick i miss you and i love you... this is sad...
life is so shitty right now.
ashleigh- thanks for everything. i dont know what i would have done without you today. you mean everything to me. im so sorry this day had to come... its horrible. but i love you and feel better! see you this weekend!!! im glad i have a friend like you for times like this and to share amazing moments with too. please be safe. i would never want this day to come again ... to my best friend. i love you god i cant say that enough. i miss you al out in atl hoe turning back and shit son... <3.
hung out with deejay, jordan kimbroh, and matt anderson today for a while before the funeral... fun fun fun
after funeral ate at mellow with buddin, ash, john zayance, drew hendrix and verk. then saw boik and josh anderson... oh human... good lord. that was uplifting ...
now im home and sad... god i wish nick would call me tonight...
or anyone.... please.
<3,
jessica lynn sanders.
r.i.p. johnathan livingston simpson. i love you. god bless.
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[21 Aug 2005|12:27pm] |
R.I.P.
JOHN SIMPSON
YOU WILL BE MISSED.
friday night john simpson died. i would rather not tell the whole story on here. i loved that kid to death. he was an amazing person. he always had a way to cheer you up or make you smile even when things were at their worst. me and john used to hang out alot back in the day. the last time i saw him was like 2 months ago at mcdonalds. he told me we needed to hang out more like we used to. now i feel horrible because i feel like i wasnt as good as a friend to him as i thought... it just tells you that friends are very important and you should never take them for granted because when the day rolls around when you cant see them any more... it just feels empty. i cant even comprehend all of this right now. it just seems so unreal. i love you john simpson. god bless.
i've been told as you get older you realize more and more of your friends or people you know get hurt or die. its like you start to notice things like that more. it just doesnt seem fair or right at all. i am probobly not making any sense right now... i cant even think straight.
this is going to be so hard.
ash- i love you with all my heart. i have to work tonight but we will definatly see amy later. you can even hang out with her and then later we all can hang out. i'm sorry you have to go thorugh this too. i know you are close to the goulds. i love you so much. and things are going to get better for you in atlanta i promise.
eric- thanks so much for everything. you are such an amazing friend. thanks for talking to me today about all of this. i love you.
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[31 Jul 2005|01:57pm] |
i know things are great. and i wont take that for granted.
little things mean alot to me.... even really stupid things...
i love my friends and i write about them. i realize that your friends and family mean alot to you.... write about them in your info... im so lame... i cant believe im writing this...jesus.... sometimes i just dont feel very important or like i am a big part of your life like you say... i mean im not even in anything you write about... are you to scared to change that one thing... that one little thing because you think that it might mean no chances with anyone else... and im not talking about everything you write about, everyone but me... its something else.... i dont know what i am talking about. i needed to vent. i just want to feel special...
this is so hard.
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[25 Jul 2005|11:14pm] |
I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW! ALL MY FRIENDS CAME TO SEE ME AT WORK TONIGHT AND ME AND NICK ARE BACK TOGETHER AND I AM GOING SHOPPING TOMORROW!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH NICHOLAS WALKER MASSA! I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU IN 4 DAYS!
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[13 Jul 2005|06:57pm] |
HERE ARE SOME PICTURES I HAVE TAKEN OVER THE PAST FEW WEEKS.
CHARLIE WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!
ALORA AND DEVIOUS DEVIN (THEY NEED CLEAR EYES)
CHARLIE AND MY PILLOW BUT WE CAN JUST PRETEND HE IS WEARING A BIG SHIRT.
ME AND CHARLIE STOKED FOR ANDY MILONAKIS
CHARLIE TOOK THIS ONE
AND CHARLES WALTER JOBALTER SALTER BROWN HOLLIFIELD GOOGAN WITH TAPE ON HIS FACE CUZ I AM SICK AND TIRED OF HEARING HIM TALK ABOUT REDICULOUS THINGS.... HAHAHAHA. JK. LOVE.
....AND IM SPENT....
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THE 4TH WAS OUTRAGEOUS.... WOW.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! THATS ALL I CAN REALLY SAY RIGHT NOW.
...BUT...
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IN OTHER TRAGIC NEWS...
WALLACE MCDERMIT THE HERMIT MCGUILICUTY PASSED AWAY TODAY WHILE I WAS IN THE SHOWER.
HE WAS ALIVE BEFORE I GOT IT... WE PLAYED TOGETHER FOR A FEW SHIRT MINUTES... LITTLE DID I KNOW HE WAS ON HIS WAY TO DEATH... POOR CRAB.
HE WAS A GOOD ONE.
R.I.P.
worked today.
now im going to hang out with charlie and watch him skate up at pogressive and im hoping ash will go with me.
MATT I LEFT MY PURSE IN YOUR CAR. I NEED IT ASAP.
DONT STEEL MY MONEY.
LOVE.
+JESS+
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wow so interesting story....
me and colleen are cool. we talk and stuff. she is so sweet. she said she gives up.... i can have him. this is jsut too weird. like who would have thought this would happen....wow . i dont know. but i do know that i am going to go visit that girl sometime when i get my car!
yesterday i hung out with ash, charlie, kev, kev, and NATHAN HOWARD CAME OVER OUT OF NO WHERE! yeah! i love that kid. hopefully ill see him tonight for the 4th.
but yeah after ashs yesterday me and charlie went to my house ad watched t.v. played CLUE(guess who?) , the oreo cookie game, and then we watched the sunday stew. it wasnt bad. but i saw billy idol. i love him. he is so hott for beign so old. also! andy milonakis! was so funny! hahaha! god i love him!party very sunday. whos with me??!?!?!?!?
so yeah im going out on the boat today for my moms bday and for the 4th. but later im hoping to go see some friends and stuff.
happy 4th to everyone.
imout.
+jess+
imishyafashe
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spent the night at ashs last night. it was great. SHE MADE ME A BARF BAG BECAUSE I ATE A SHIT LOAD OF BABY CLAMS.
woke up went to king pollo for ash and mines first day.. we had to wear hats.... but it was pretty easy.
went to stevens after work. road trip. went back to ashs after that. hung out... went home . changed.
went to mellow to work. got some tip money. nice. work was pretty good tonight.
now im bored doing nothing at all.
probobly talk to charlie brown tonight.again. whats new. ITS ALWAYS RAINING IN MY MIND!!!!....
im bored...
i want an ice cream sandwhich.
JENNIFER! I BOUGHT EDEBAME (SP?) TONIGHT. IN MEMORY OF YOU. AND I LOVE IT NOW. HAHA. I ALSO EAT PEANUT BUTTER ON A HUGE SPOON LIKE EVERY NIGHT. I MISS YOU I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU!
AND IT WILL HAPPEN SOON.
me and smithers are hanging out soon. we made a DEAL!!!!
im going to go eat an ice cream sandwich.....
with a ....
SPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!
LATA!
+JESS+
i wish you would die
i wish that all the days i wasted my time with you
were all erased
i cant stand one last kiss before i go
you know were never gonna get any better
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[29 Jun 2005|08:07pm] |
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I GOT MY HAIR CUT TODAY. I THINK IT LOOKS PRETTY GOOD ACTUALLY. I AM GOING TO GET VERONICE TO FIC THE BACK OF IT ONCE I GET IN TOUCH WITH HER. I JUST WANT IT A LITTLE SHORTER. ITS GOING TO JUST FABULOUS!
HUNG OUT WITH ASH, KEV, KEV, RYAN, COURT, LILLS, DEVIN, ALORA, AND MATT TODAY FOR A LITTLE BIT. THAT WAS FUN.
ALORA YOUR HAIR LOOKS LOVELY!!!!
been hanging out with ashleigh, kev, kev, charlie, and devin alot still. it never gets old. i love them.
umm so i thought things were going to be great when he got home... but it still feels like when we dont talk for a few days that he forgets about me... i hate that there is that other girl... there is always that other girl... i am just trying not to worry about it too much... but i dont think i can help it. i mean i love that kid.... this is not fun.
but whatever.... i'm going out tonight with adam again. this should be fun. i can't wait. drew is on his way over to come and get me and then its off to the cookout and stuff. i love all these kids too . it makes my life very entertaining.
so i got another job with ashleigh. im still keeping mellow. this is going to be crazy... so far all i know is it me, ash, kevin o, probobly black tim, prob . bobby , and prob. sean brooks.
jesus ... we are going to get into so much trouble working together. ahhahah. yes!
i cant get enough of andy milonakis. that kid is completely crazy. but god ho i love that show... and SOUP AND SOUP AND SOUP AND SOUP AND SOUP AND SOUP... AND THATS ALOT OF SOUP.
YOU CAN ALSO LEARN HOW TO THROW SPOONS AT A PUPPY CALENDER!
AWWWW BUT IM TOO OLD FOR NEW TECHNOLOGY...
HAHAHAHAHHAHAH! GAHD!
and also:
IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR A JOB!!!!!
GO TO KING POLLO. ITS BY THE NEW PUBLIX IN TOWNE LAKE AND THEY ARE HIRING COOKS TO COOK CHICKEN AND STUFF FOR $14 AN HOUR IF YOUR ARE LIKE 18 OR PREFERABLY OVER 18!!! SO GO AND CHECK IT OUT AND HAVE FUN WORKING WITH MEEEE!!!!!! YAY!
OK IM OUTTA HERE.
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[25 Jun 2005|01:13am] |
ash spent the night last night. we watched girl interrupted.... that was such a good movie.
talked to nick all night again. that was nice. i love that boy.
then woke up came to ashs with her and devin. hung out. james came over. hung out..... charlie came over. fun fun fun. we all hung out. then me and charlie went to my house os i could finish some cleaning shit and then we went to work. then ash came up there and we all hung out. i worked and talked to ash. work was easy as hell today.
then charlie came back to egt me and ash and greenfield came over to give a big what up to us... that was nothing short of funny as shit... wow that kid is outta control. haha.
me and ash and charlie went to rent THE WEDDING SINGER! BEST MOVIE EVER!. charlie left in the middle. LAME!
now me and ash are hanging out. its sweet.
sometimes i wonder if this is all just a joke or a lie... i liek to think its not. i know you care and you love me.... i guess i am being selfish in that i want you all for myself... and i know i cant have that right now. i guess i'll jsut have to wait it out and see what happens in the near future.... wating isnt fun.... but i guess i'd wait forever.
+jes-sick-a+
you dont know how much i need you
when your near me i dont feel blue
And when we kiss I know that you need me too.
I can't believe I found a love that's so pure and true.
But it all was bullshit.
It was a fucking joke.
And when I think of you and I,
I hope you fucking choke.
I hope you're glad with what you've done to me.
I lay in bed all day long feeling melancholy.
You left me here all alone, tears running constantly.
Oh somebody kill me please,
somebody kill me plee-ase,
I'm on my knees,
pretty pretty please kill me.
I want to die.
Put a bullet in my head.
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